It is very difficult.
I need to move forward and attempt to regain my life back again – not only for my sake, but for the sake of my children, my wife and my family and friends.
The last three years, to say they have been difficult, is a massive understatement.
Whist out walking today, I began to think about the inner peace and happiness that used to be such a big part of my life. A peace that I desire to find and embrace again.
My striving and fighting for justice has become too much. It has taken its toll in all areas of my life. The anger and fight that I directed at the Comboni Missionaries, in subtle ways is coming back and hitting me.
It was in this vein that I rang Rome today and asked to speak with Sanchez, the Superior General. I explained to the receptionist and then to a priest who i was. I was informed a couple of minutes later that Sanchez would ring me back. The Sanchez call never came. I rang again and was once again, informed that Sanchez would ring me back. The Sanchez call never came. I suspect that they were seeking advice and legal council. I rang back and was told that Sanchez was out. I asked to speak to a priest that spoke English, and the phone was put down. It was subsequently put down on all of my calls after that. It is still being put down now two hours later.
Having the phone put down on me was difficult and hard to understand. It upset me. I had built myself up to talk. An opportunity to have a dialogue and more importantly, an opportunity for progress. Progress, not only for me but also for my abuser and the Combonis. Nobody else would have been involved. It was them and me. Nobody else would have known.
The dialogue that I wanted would have certainly finished off the criminal case that WYP are still pursuing against my abuser.
I still see the need for change within the Catholic Church, and I would like to believe, that I will continue, to chip away at the church’s foundations, especially in relation to clericalism and the abuse of children.
The offer is still there.